Yes it's finally raining here in southern California. I woke up this morning to dewy dampness in the air that my skin has been favoring lately. Funny, I am such a creature of habit yet always striving for the balance of things out of the ordinary. Rain was a common theme while living in Florida and it's been surely missed.
This year has been an incredible journey for me and my family. I have been trying to keep the glue in tack and the foundation down yet encourage fluidity so we can all eventually *sing*. Perhaps that doesn't make any sense for some, but for me it's important to reach beyond my comfort level. I am such a creature of independence and yet I need to root myself in order to gain momentum.
My kids surprise me as well. After years of trying to get them in organized sports and programs (soccer, basketball, team gymnastics, cub scouts, etc.) they had to tell me, "Hey mom I like taking surf lessons really.......Mom, I like tumbling, but I really don't want to be on team gymnastics.......Mom, I like yoga.......Mom, I like guitar lessons.......Mom, I don't want to wear this uniform."
So obvious that these must be my children. I just assumed because I grew up among hippie teachers in San Francisco during the 70's + springing off my love for visual arts, performance art + urban farms in city alcoves that my kids would prefer more organization + team efforts. But they had to tell me where they really felt at peace in their growth.
How obvious sometimes.
Don't get me wrong as team efforts + working with community is what makes people as a whole grow. It just caught me off guard that my own children exactly mirrored what I strive for, so soon.......independence, freedom, fluidity + the creative life.
This garnered taste memories of my mother's pineapple carrot cake she used to make when I was growing up.....
I've been buried knee deep lately.
Emotions have been running high.
It's been a year of transitions and really, lots of surrender.
The more I surrender; the more I find myself at a place I wasn't expecting.
Yet what's been enlightening about the fruits of surrender aside from the element of surprise is also intrigue.
Through my love of fresh foods, ingredients + even raw foods + recipes, this has lovingly lead me down the road of healing on many levels. This brought me to a place of uncovering the healing properties of food and now the healing properties of herbs.
Oh yes, herbs.
There's a whole population of them that have called me forth lately. I have used their healing energy to get us through the move, the transition + even through school flu season.
They also shined through and eased my children through those Indian Summer days when it's HOT COLD HOT COLD + omygosh I'm gonna be sick days......
Appreciating simplicity and thank goodness a shot in the dehydrator was not necessary! 'Tis the real raw deal inspired by Ani Phyo's recipes and my own *thensome* thrown in. The *cake* is made from carrot pulp (from being juiced), sunflower seeds + almonds whirred in the food processor, lots of spices like grated nutmeg and cinnamon, fresh crushed pineapple.........I made the frosting with raw cashews alongside a sultry spin of medjool dates bursting in their own sugar.
This journey of transition this year something else kept knocking on my door.
It all makes sense as I am balancing my love for family life, good whole fresh foods, the vibrant life and now my obsession with the healing properties of herbs......something else came my way. You know I love *light*, I love the sun. I love the beach. I love energy. I love good vibes.
It was so obvious and then I finally responded.
This is after *years* of it crossing my path......calling my name.
You know how sometimes we don't listen to that voice nudging at us?
I am still inquiring. Still a bit skeptical. But totally open.
I just recieved my first Reiki 1 attunement.
More on all of this later.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for checking in on me.
You guys are swell :-)
So this is what I have been up to.
Laying down a new foundation on the other coast. Still cooking, creating, writing, studying, sunning, hiking + loving yoga.
Yes, my hands have been full, yet open to receive........
Monday, December 7, 2009